I don't want to die

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Here’s the thing: I’m about to finally be free in about 2.5 weeks, and I’m scared of dying. I feel like I’ve started loving life again, so I really don’t want to lose it. That’s a big contrast from last year, when I felt like living was harder than death and being in heaven. Now I really want to see my family, play tennis and pickleball, and play the piano, among other things.

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