Depressed
I just feel dead inside. I worked 2:00 to 10:00 PM yesterday and 8:00 AM to 4:00 PM today. At least I'm getting time-and-a-half for the 4th of July, but it feels like the joy of life has been completely sucked out of me. I ate six donut holes earlier, and that was the only thing that made me happy for all of five minutes. Man, this is tough. The crazy thing is, I can do almost anything I want at work—listen to music, stream podcasts, or watch videos when there's nothing to do, which is most of the time. But I'm still feeling depressed and completely exhausted. Isn't it weird how eating more and exercising less makes you feel so much lower? On days when I actually hit the gym and eat proper meals, I feel so much better. But right now? All I want to do is bed rot, cry, and do absolutely nothing with my life. I have zero motivation. I really don't think I'm cut out for the 9-to-5 grind. I could easily handle working four hours a day, though. Or maybe two or three...