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Apparently, people have actually been reading some of my posts…

It's crazy, but thank you. I'm definitely embarrassed—it's like a teenager has been writing these posts… But I’ll try to do better now. XOXO (I'm sorry I couldn't resist) - Aida

One bad choice -> Chaos

Perceived partner commitment-> This is important for relationship satisfaction. By the way, something happened today that helped me understand cheating a little better. Imagine being vegan for five years, and then, out of curiosity or weakness, you eat a small amount of meat. In that moment, you’re no longer vegan—it only takes a few seconds of different choices to step outside that identity. Something similar can happen in a relationship. If you’ve been married for five years and your partner cheats—even if it’s “just” a kiss—it can still feel like everything has changed. Why does one action carry such heavy consequences? Why does it break trust or seem to erase so much? Logically, it might seem like it shouldn’t matter that much. But emotionally, it does. If my partner of five years kissed someone else, it would hurt. Fear, doubt, and distrust can take over, and suddenly everything feels unstable. It’s chaotic, and it really sucks.

I don't like this finance project

Okay, so finance is definitely not my passion. This project is way harder than I expected, and it’s giving major CS energy—being thrown into something where I have no idea what’s going on and just having to figure it out anyway. Not fun. Future me: if you’re ever tempted to go down this path again, please remember how this felt. You deserve to do something that actually excites you, not something that drains you like this.

Sorry for the darkness

Wow, I reread some of my old blog posts and quite a few were really negative. I’m sorry—that was a lot of neuroticism. No worries, though. I’ll try to self-soothe and be more emotionally stable. But honestly, I might be cheating a bit, because Imma be done with school—and LOVE LIFE AGAIN!!!

Love & Jealousy

Miranda Hope  and  Chase McWhorter She is absolutely stunning, and he’s a tall, good-looking guy. Chase has mentioned that he doesn't really get jealous, and he clearly enjoys the freedom of dating around. A traditional nuclear family doesn't seem to be on his radar. In his current state, he wouldn't exactly fit the archetype of a romance novel hero... unless, of course, he found "the one" and traded his desire for variety for the singular goal of keeping her. The most intriguing part to me, though, is his  lack of jealousy . I struggle to wrap my head around that. It raises a deep question:  Can you truly love someone without feeling jealous? Maybe the answer is simply that people love differently. Some love might be less intense, or perhaps it’s just as powerful but expressed through a different lens. Loving without a trace of possessiveness is a "weird" concept, especially by the standards of romance novels, where jealousy is often used as a benchmark...

Pickleball

My new obsession