Aida Hashemi

Okay, so finance is definitely not my passion. This project is way harder than I expected, and it’s giving major CS energy—being thrown into something where I have no idea what’s going on and just having to figure it out anyway. Not fun. Future me: if you’re ever tempted to go down this path again, please remember how this felt. You deserve to do something that actually excites you, not something that drains you like this.

Wow, I reread some of my old blog posts and quite a few were really negative. I’m sorry—that was a lot of neuroticism. No worries, though. I’ll try to self-soothe and be more emotionally stable. But honestly, I might be cheating a bit, because Imma be done with school—and LOVE LIFE AGAIN!!!

Miranda Hope  and  Chase McWhorter She is absolutely stunning, and he’s a tall, good-looking guy. Chase has mentioned that he doesn't really get jealous, and he clearly enjoys the freedom of dating around. A traditional nuclear family doesn't seem to be on his radar. In his current state, he wouldn't exactly fit the archetype of a romance novel hero... unless, of course, he found "the one" and traded his desire for variety for the singular goal of keeping her. The most intriguing part to me, though, is his  lack of jealousy . I struggle to wrap my head around that. It raises a deep question:  Can you truly love someone without feeling jealous? Maybe the answer is simply that people love differently. Some love might be less intense, or perhaps it’s just as powerful but expressed through a different lens. Loving without a trace of possessiveness is a "weird" concept, especially by the standards of romance novels, where jealousy is often used as a benchmark...

My new obsession 

It’s as simple as that—I just need to accept it. I used to be smarter about this simple fact (I'm referring to High School). It really is easy to understand, yet somehow I’ve recently struggled with it. Sure, it makes me a little sad, but I’m also so excited about playing pickleball, swimming, going to the sauna, and more. Freedom! I’m not going to let this ruin my life. I’m going to focus on enjoying life to the fullest and finding a healthy balance between work and my hobbies. That’s it—simple as that.

I can’t believe school will be finished soon—I’m so, so happy I’ll finally be free. Freedom! Freedom! I’m planning to binge-watch TV, binge-read books, go to the sauna, and swim. I seriously can’t wait to read in the sauna!!! By the way, I had such a relaxing weekend last week. I watched  You  with German subtitles, and it was really nice. I’ve also been wanting to finish  Ginny & Georgia —I love Paul and Georgia together. Their relationship is so cute, and I just love Paul. I really want to finish it, but I’ve been telling myself that delayed gratification is best. If I start studying seriously for finals now, I’ll have way less stress later.