Wanting to Reach Out, Choosing Not To

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I think the man who shall not be named is getting married within the next couple of years. He’s seeing someone, and wow—they look really happy. I’m genuinely happy for them.

At the same time, I’ve been wanting to reach out to him to say congratulations and to apologize again for my past behavior. But the right thing to do is to say nothing, no matter how much I want to. This is how people’s lives get ruined—when a third party tempts someone to cheat.

I would absolutely never cheat, but the only reason I want to reach out is because of my feelings, and that alone means I shouldn’t. There’s no good outcome:

  1. I could get rejected.

  2. I wouldn’t get rejected, but his girlfriend’s heart would be broken.

  3. He could lead both of us on and cheat in some capacity.

Every possible outcome is bad, so I won’t say a word—no matter how badly I want to. UGH. It can be so hard to do the right thing. But I know it will be rewarding in the future.

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