Healed

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It took just one look at a 6’2”, blonde, baby-faced guy, and I can finally say I’m healed. My ex now feels like a stranger, and I have no desire to see him again. I can’t believe that was all I needed.

Yay! It feels amazing to live again without constantly thinking about someone who hurt me so badly.


11.17.25

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